Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Shouting with JOY

I generally try to refrain from posting about anything too personal on this blog, but today is an exception. I feel like sharing a story. 8 years ago, I desperately wanted another baby. We already had been blessed with an amazing little boy and I knew I was supposed to have more, but things weren’t exactly working out. I had just suffered 3 consecutive miscarriages, including, based on an early ultrasound, what was thought to be a set of twins. 4 miscarriages total (my first pregnancy had been a miscarriage as well). My pregnancy track record was rotten, and my spirit broken. It was a dark time in my life. We had an appointment with a renowned recurrent miscarriage specialist at the local university hospital that was still months away. Then I found myself unexpectedly pregnant again, and completely terrified. Right away I started to have problems with bleeding and I thought for sure another miscarriage was imminent. Because I was pregnant, we were able to get into the specialist that week – an appointment that included an ultrasound. When we went to drop off our son at my mother-in-law's house before our appointment, she said, “Call me as soon as you know.” And then I said to her, “We probably won’t feel like talking about it.” To this she said, “I think you will want to shout with joy in the streets.” I was completely consumed with doubt, and she was overflowing with faith. During the ultrasound, a tiny little pulsation – the beating of a microscopic heart was seen immediately. The pregnancy was viable, and my heart full of hope. My mother-in-law was right, I did feel like shouting with joy. I spotted on and off the entire first trimester of the pregnancy, but that next spring, April 8th in fact, we were blessed with a beautiful daughter. Today, that little miracle baby of ours is 7 years old. I still feel like shouting with joy in the streets, just because I am lucky enough to be her mom.


Before school this morning
LOVE her so much!

7 comments:

Des said...

Oh Natalie. That's beautiful! I'm so happy for you. I can definately sympathize with you. I have 2 kids.....8 years apart. And they are definately miracles to me! thanks for sharing this personal insight.

p.s. got your package all ready....just need to go to the post office. I hate going to the post office and will put it off for ridiculous amounts of time. But I will try. for you.

Ferrill said...

What a beautiful little girl! And definitely a reason to shout for joy. Thanks for posting your story.

Deck The HALLS of HOME with JOY! said...

I love your story, thanks for sharing! What a beautiful little girl! Happy Birthday to your sweet little girl and Congratulations!

I shout with JOY along with you! I feel so blessed to have my two little girls born five years ago and 21 years ago! They are both miracles to me!

Beth at Aunties said...

Happy Birthday to our little Sweetheart. It was a fun filled day and I am so glad She was born strong and healthy and so beautiful!
She is such a delight to us all!

Neena said...

You made me cry reading this post, you are amazing and I'm glad you shared this personal experience. Happy birthday to your special little girl!

mindy said...

Happy Birthday to our cute, pretty, beautiful, brown-haired with big bright eyes fun-to-play-with friend. (Zander's description but I agree)

Lorna said...

You have a beautiful daughter and your blog is so pretty, nice pictures.